Originally, writing endlessly and expressing in a gloomy manner was a natural and innocent thing a few years ago. I'm not sure exactly when, but this part of my brain must have shrunk. Recently, I've been writing while riding the bus, and it feels so contrived.
But this doesn't work, so I'll just give up. Maybe it's a result of gradually ignoring my own perception and not wanting to fix it in words. It's also a form of self-restraint, and that's okay.
However, I can't write my thesis at all now. I suspect that there's a noise generator in my brain constantly interfering with my logic. As someone who relies on logic, I'm really unhappy. Is there any way to exercise and improve? Friends who read this, please give me some advice.
I feel like I need to establish a very clear line that separates me from other aspects of my life. It will force me to only walk in a straight line in a very narrow space.
In the past, when I watched "The Phantom", for some reason, it left me with a strong feeling that often influences my decisions. It's the feeling that in order to go where I want to go, I have to take a detour and choose the most unlikely path to reach my destination safely. This feeling is very detrimental to my current or short-term needs.
Walking might be suitable for prose. But I no longer take walks easily. After getting up, I go downstairs, have a coffee, and smoke a cigarette, circling the building within a radius of fifty meters. That's the closest thing I can do to taking a walk. So I can't write prose well anymore.
Surfing the internet always leads me astray. Especially when it comes to interdisciplinary research, I lose focus. I start writing the introduction and realize that I might be going in the wrong direction.
I need to reflect deeply! Reduce the types of information I consume!